It's amazing how relaxing it is once I've taken a step.  It doesn't have to be a large step.  Just a step.  In the right direction.  And then I can breathe again.  For today.


It's really an odd feeling being me.  I feel like my kids know more than I do about life.  Seriously.  So I guess I did SOMETHING right while raising them. I'm not sure what that is.  But I must have had SOME influence.  Right?  


I'm 49.  I live with my stepmom with my son.  I am single for the very first time in my life.  (since being a teen)  I have to figure out what I want to do with my life.  I do have an idea of the direction I want to go.  And I am struggling with getting the ball rolling.  But I haven't given up.